A moment ago, I was thinking, I am SOOOO glad I didn’t live during the time of the Exodus. You see, with my mouth and independent thinking, and suffice it to say, ego, the chapter title would have read for Numbers 16: “The rebellion of Korah, Dathan, Abiram and Bro. Roy!”
Old man Moses had a time on his hands, didn’t he? First, he had to deal with Pharaoh. Then deal with Korah and his crew; and if that wasn’t enough, he had to deal with his, get this, “elder” brother and sister! I think dealing with the Canaanites, the Ammonites and all the other “ites” would have been so much easier than dealing with those who were supposedly in his own camp, on his own side. It’s become easier picking with those closest to us than fighting those who really want to kill us!
Following is not an easy task. It means putting aside what we “think” is right and more practical. It means having to put aside thinking we can do it better. It means turning over our feelings, our desires, our goals and trust someone we may not like, respect or believe, to take leadership of our lives, our faith and even our salvation! I guess what I’m saying is, there is no longer any “ours” when it comes to following. No, I’m not speaking about Christ here, because that would be a lot easier to do, in theory, than the ones He has put in place, to represent Him, to lead us. And this, my friends, takes faith. Not necessarily in the ones God has placed over us, but in Him leading us through them.
When Jesus was making up the Disciples, He requested each to “follow Him”. We are following today in the same manner. We are where we are today because of where they were with Him. They had to overcome their own ideologies, wants, goals and pre-conceived notions as to how things ought to be when things became as they were to be. This is not easy. It took a whole lot of surrendering to get to the stage where they were able to be effectively used, by God. We’re no different.
What we are being asked, today, is simply this, “Can you not just follow Me?” Can you not trust the people I have put in leadership roles? Can you not trust it is My Church and I have already told you the gates of hell will not prevail against it? Can you trust Me? Then, follow Me.”
When I was in the recovery houses due to addiction or the prison facilities due to sin, I was broken down to learn how to “follow” those put in authority of me. It didn’t mean I would be willing to be lead against my common-sense, or in breaking the Ten Commandments. It meant I had no say, at least audibly at first, then to learn how to acquiesce completely inwardly to those who were placed ahead of me. In fact, there is a text of Scripture I like so much. It is:
“Obey them that have the rule over you, and submit yourselves: for they watch for your souls, as they that must give account, that they may do it with joy, and not with grief: for that is unprofitable for you.” Heb 13:17 (KJV)
Do not think for a moment those who have these positions are taking this lightly. Oh no! In a way, I’m glad God never called me to the role of pastor, in the conventional sense, but what He has called me to do many of you are witness. How many of you have stated having been inspired by my writings? How many of you look forward to them, have learned something by them? I don’t take God’s leading me for granted. I don’t write because I’ve nothing else to do. I write because this is my commission and I do it sincerely, willingly and respectfully, but mostly, I do it carefully and prayerfully. Why? Because I have to give an account, too, and you are too precious, I am too precious, to do so by placing my ideas, my thoughts and biases into these messages. I pray the day will NEVER come when I write what Bro. Roy believes and not what the Holy Spirit is giving me. How can what I write be tested? Because, I fail at many of the things I write! Oh, do not let it become a surprise. You have no idea of the many times I have become convicted from what my fingers tap onto this keyboard and I read as the words appear before my eyes. The messages given through me is for me and they are for you. And like anything, put them to the test of Isa. 8:20. When I fail to measure up, then you know it is me writing.
I am learning what it means to “follow” Christ. I am learning to know what it means to “follow” the governing board He has put in place to lead me, to lead us, where He wants us to go, united, together and not divided.
Won’t you decide today to examine yourselves and see where the controversy lies? Won’t you examine your hearts and put away your pride of having been wrong in order to be accepting of the right? If it is not of God it will fail! But if it IS of God, then you are fighting against Him and you will never be successful EXCEPT in putting yourself in danger of being lost—eternally. This whole journey we are on is one of “following” the Savior wherever He leads us.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He MAKETH me to lie down in green pastures: he LEADETH me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he LEADETH me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” Psalms 23:1-3 (KJV)
Long before we can ever get to that table He has prepared for us; long before any goodness and mercy will allow us to dwell in God’s house, we have to learn how to follow, and this without complaint.
There’s no turning back when you’re following, except you go out of the way. And when this happens, THEN, there is the sounds of gnashing of teeth.
July 10, 2015